Change or not change…that is the question
Thursday my best friend E. decided it was time to give me some advice on my desperate and awful working days. We both went to have dinner together, the two of us, and we talked. She is 7 years older than me and she went through big issues throughout her life so we can say she has a lot to teach me.
We had a lovely chat, she made me realize that I’m not on my 20′ or 30′, I am 40 and it’s time to be reasonable with my life and ponderer what I want to do with it. If I am suffering working with my job and office environment than she thinks I should move on and search for another job.
I know that a long time ago…
She says I’m moved by fear of changing jobs and search for a new life. I confess that fear moves me sometimes, the uncertainty of the financial future with two kids to raise…scares me, but I have to think about my health too. I am taking antidepressants due to the working environment I’m in, I can’t have a sane and healthy life in the office so maybe it’s time to take the risk and search for another one.
Financially I believe we can manage our bills payment if I continue to get some work online. I’m don’t have ambitious wishes like going on a orlando vacations or buy a new car, right now I just want to have enough for the monthly bills and any extra expenses that come up. My working environment is so bad that I just want to get rid of it and be away from it. Now, am I being selfish? I don’t think so, the whole family would benefit from an sane and healthy mother and wife, don’t you think?
